I’m not a hermit. Sometimes I wish I was. Because, if I were a hermit, it would mean that I wouldn’t have to deal with people. Let’s face it, sometimes people aren’t the most fun to deal with. But what is life without them?
I mess up. A lot. My neurological makeup is such that I miss out on a lot of social cues and conversational intricacies. As a result, I have been told I often say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Or I’ll say the right thing in the wrong way. Or I say nothing at all and come across as a complete jerk. More often than not, I don’t even know I’ve done it unless someone close to me points it out.
Neurological atypicalities aside, I often find myself alone. Close friends have been difficult to come by and even family isn’t always aware or understanding of my abnormalities. I feel alone.
That’s why this verse in Job stood out to me today.
You must defend my innocence, O God, since no one else will stand up for me.
Job 17:3 (NLT)
So what does it mean for God to defend me, stand up for me?
The Lord is for me, so I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
Yes, the Lord is for me; he will help me.
I will look in triumph at those who hate me
It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in people.
Psalm 118:6-8 (NLT)
Even in my dark places, when I feel completely alone, God is still there. With me.
Even though I may feel like the entire world is against me, God is still there. For me.
If I am wrong, He will forgive me. If I am innocent, He will defend me.
Though the words and actions of people around me may hurt, they can have no eternal effect on my spirit. Those people and their words cannot take God, my defender, from me.
People have always failed and will always fail. But the Lord will not. In those times when we struggle in our relationships, we can put our trust in God knowing that He will remain sure even when everything else may not.
He is for me; He will help me.
Daily Bible reading: Job 16-18, Acts 9:1-22